A sigh. A swallow. Then, gulp! A cringe followed by a smile.
The sun may rise and set, but that means very little to me. For it's the moon who reigns sovereign over my activities. Awake all night toiling away, working with blood and body fluids. I will miss sitting at the microscope in front of the window facing east. It has the most perfect view of the Fisher building, truly. The bench is set up so that when you lift your eyes from a task complete, you get a glimpse of the world beneath. Then I ask myself "where am I?" and the breadth of my grown years is consolidated into one long sigh. Although I will miss working in hematology the universe has opened a door. Tentatively curious, I inch closer until I'm pawing at the light.
Accepting this job in microbiology has it's draw backs, but those are only superficial and monetary. I will have to work five days a week instead of four and the opportunity to get that overtime pay is not as likely. However, the opportunity to sharpen my expertise in infections disease is not just a step, but a ladder on my way up towards my ambitions. Having this on a resume is like a shining gold star, both for my grad school application and any humanitarian work I wish to be apart of.
I'm convinced the best way to do something is to do it with your whole being. All your thoughts, all your actions become preparation and supports the ideology. If you can't channel every ounce of your character to one pivotal point then I doubt the sincerity of your intentions. Chapters accumulate to tell a story. I've only had a few chapters written in my book. So many empty pages to feather through, I have to resist the urge to write the last page. It's impossible to know if my 5-year plan, 10-year plan, 20-year outline will actually become the table of content for my life. No harm in dreaming, right? Fantasies are fertilizer but sitting around in La-La-Land never got anybody anywhere. I have places to go, I have visited them in my dreams so often my steps have left a pathway.
The Skinny
- Jie Hua
- Detroit, Mi
- I'm in the process. I'd like to expand on that, but it's in the process. I go about my business under the guidance of gut-feelings and universal street signs. I see myself as a very quiet person. Not because I have little to say, only that my abundant thoughts know not where to start. As a child I fantasized about looking through a telescope to give me truth about the world. It amuses me now that what I am doing is looking down a microscope in an effort to reevaluate my holistic position. I am a loner, a drifter, a dreamer.
