We play these games just to be cruel. We could just be confused. Confused as ever. It's hard to decipher the reasons each time I make this orbit past square one. Perpetually landing on the launching pad, but I'm still circling the same person.
For reasons unknown to me, I can't let him go and so I can't let anyone in. I am more forgiving than I knew I was capable of, applicable only to him. How the hell did he get so much leverage? I've cut him out of my life multiple times but one way or another he worms his way back in. I burned the bridge between us only to build a raft. It's not easy, but somehow it works (most inefficiently).
He said yes, but I don't remember what I asked him. I was too drunk to remember things I said. There's a faint recollection, but by no means is there a time table. I wish I knew what he agreed to.
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